Try to make the most of life it's worth it...

Some days you just can't win. Ask God in Heaven before you get out of bed to take care of your life and all things will work out as long as you are remembering to keep God's kingdom first and loving your neighbors as yourself but mess up there and you are on your own. I tried to leave some feed back on a blog of someone else's but ended up blogging my own blog. What a drag as I wasn't ready for mine and it always takes me 10 hours to get a half hour out here for you to see. This just messed up my day sort of.

All I wanted to do was tell someone that infamous was a bad thing not a good thing and look, I am now blogging my own page again so why do they have comments on the Blogs at Blogger?

So let me try and save the day with a great Blog about life and living in it. I live in life because back in 1955 my mother and father were feeling frisky one cold evening after already having 2 boys 4 & 5 years earlier so the way I look at it is either I am a mistake and mom got fixed after my birth or they actually wanted me. I can't see that after knowing my brothers so I have to conclude that I am a mistake and have been making them ever since I popped my little head out of that stretched pussy that belonged to mom way back in 1956. Ouch is all I can say for both of us now thinking back but I guess in a way I had it made because my brothers got to try their hand at raising a child. I spent more time with my brothers then with my parents so I feel in a small way like they raised me… They were mean as shit to me most of the time and I was a pest to them most of the time too but we had to like one another because we traveled across or is that around the world together knowing only ourselves most of the time until school would start and my brothers would run of to school and mom and I played a lot at the local swimming pool. This was the first time I can even remember so after that I begin remembering bunches of times that I was given to my brothers to be taken care of without their consent and they hated me for that and I didn't want to be with them anymore than they wanted me with them.

Life is funny that way but I learned to like and even love my brothers like a family is supposed to love one another even though they didn't learn that part of life. I am not saying anything they wouldn’t say themselves about each other. I lived in a very dysfunctional environment only because I was left to play by myself more than with people all over the world and it didn't bother me because I was the cause of more fights than I care to mention. Brothers watching out for the little one. I got more beatings than I deserved because of the same brothers too. I think when you are the third child in a bundle of three there isn't much you can do that is right to your parents but I had to answer more to my two brothers than to my parents and I am so screwed up try putting a lid on me… It wont fit. J

My favorite member of the Upright Family right now is my sister in-law even though she seems to think I am a boy around 12 and need to be guided around by the hand but I like that because she just cares. I don't even hear from either of my brothers any more just the oldest's wife, which is fine with me, as I really don't have much to say to my brother on that end. Kim is so much more informative. Now let me state this correct, I love all my brothers as if they were living with me and we were just as we were in the past but the Upright men don't speak to one another. Thank God for Kim which is the oldest brother's wife and she and I love talking to one another so I feel as though I talked to Richard when my calls and emails are finished with his wife. Now my next to the oldest brother is loved by me and that is in the heart because there is not one word spoken to me since his marriage and I don't even know how long ago that was. I didn't want to have him fade away and I did want to have a family for life but it seems as though I live alone and share time with parts of the family at different times. I spend time with mom and dad on Sundays for dinner and anytime dad or mom needs computer help. I spend Thanksgiving dinner with them and every other birthday of mine which really lets me know that they do love me dearly and then Kim and I email and talk on the phone together. Richard doesn't do phones or email so Kim is just fine because she is his wife that I pray never ends.

So with my lost brother and his wife I don't know if they even care or like me and the family. I tried inviting them for thanksgiving dinner last year because that would have meant the entire family would have been here but no they had better things to do so I guess we take back seat to any and all things in their lives. Oh well, I love them just the same. We can't always get what we want..

One good thing happened to me this past year though and that was picking up a new and old family member with 3 daughters that I love so much along with her husband Steve. We now communicate as much as we want and there is no pressure about contacting one another but I email Vickie's middle daughter Christy as often as I think of something to say to her so if I can't have a brother I will do with a cousin and her family. I visited them a year or two ago and am overwhelmed with the love our family is still capable of.

Cuzzin Jake I can't forget about comes down when he wants and he is 83 years old. He came down last month and I love having him down and we talk about everything and that is some good love there. I love to see him coming or hear he is coming by it fills my body with those Champaign bubbles I get so happy.

Yes, 50 years old and I am surrounded with love and I love to love all else pales to the love I am blessed with here in Tallahassee Florida.

God Bless you all

La Roo